THE FIRST WOMAN I EVER LOVED by Toby
We all have that feminine figure in our life as a lady or as a guy. The one you depend on when everyone turns their backs on you?, the one that knows you better than you know yourself, she can describe you and you would be surprised that there are somethings about yourself that you did not even know was there in the first place. She has always being there, through my restless years as a baby, my stubborn and troublesome days as a child, even my arrogant and well..perverse days as a youth, and now am a man but in her eyes am still her little baby and i would ask for nothing more.
Yes!..we had our fights, i made her angry so many times, but as they say, you only make the ones you love angry, and oh! do i love her. There were some days when i got so angry that i wished so badly that i was adopted and maybe my real mum would come someday and take me away just because i was scolded…but now i realize that without those scoldings i wouldn’t be the man i am now and for that i am most grateful. When I stopped seeing her with the eyes of a child, I saw the woman who helped me give birth to myself.
Through my good days and bad she has always been there. She was the making of me. She was so true and so sure of me, I felt that I had someone to live for – someone I must not disappoint. My main aim in life is to make her proud. My jewel, my precious, my Mother….the first woman i ever loved.